Stay Tuned

To everyone that has even remotely cared enough to check on my blog spot I havent been writing much lately because I have been gathering my thoughts and beginning in the New Year I am going to try to blog weekly so please stay tuned...Just have to make sure I have something interesting to talk about each week to hold peoples interests, shoot if you have any ideas please feel free to throw some at me, I may do like a weekly wrap up of things that I enjoy the most (music, movies, sports...etc) and then add in some of my own personal thoughts that need to be vented out or discussed in the blog. But as I said everyone please stay tuned...thanks, have a happy new year

My Heart Thanks You All

"As the sky opens up to receive her, our hearts are with her, she will forever be in our hearts as we celebrate her life, the Angels have embraced her & her family."

I wanted to take some time out to thank any and everyone that showed me love over the course of the last week of my life with the passing of my grandmother. It's amazing how people that are busy with their own lives, some are miles and miles away, have never seen me face to face, some have never even heard my voice took time out to show so much compassion and sent their love, energy and support to me and my family in our time of mourning. It may only be 140 characters in a tweet, a Facebook message, a text or a phone call but I swear to you each and every one of you helped me...along with the undying support from my wife. I hadnt seen my grandmother in a few years so I was dealing with guilt from us not being in close contact once she moved to North Carolina, guilt from her knowing she had great-grandchildren but never having a chance to see them and guilt from hoping that she knew that her baby boy (which is what she would call me sometimes) loved her so very much. It was a unique relationship I had with my grandmother as she was the realest person I have ever known, she was blunt, harsh, foul mouthed, direct and didnt take no shit from no one...but on the flipside she was a beautiful woman who would do anything under the sun for those that she loved. I told my wife this story about how one time when I was a little kid my dad dropped me off over at her house and they were fighting about something and she comes to the door like she always would when I came over and says "You can keep your motherfucking ass in the car no need to get your ass out I just want my grandson" to my father and my dad was tight, he probably wont remember that but I always will cause it was funny and he knew she was mad even before we pulled up. Anyways I say that in regards to the unique relationship I shared with my Grandma and our bond was very special to me, thus at the funeral I realized that I need to do more to keep the structure of my family close, limit some of the distances that time has created between my loved ones, so in the pic above you see me hugging her 2 daughters (my Aunt Rita & Aunt Tonya) my baby cousins (Shanise & James) and her husband (Grandpa Irving) to show that in her going home we are are going to do more to stay close, and in my arms wasnt just my love but I was representing for my father who is locked up & couldnt be there (I will always carry the weight of the world for my Pops for as long as he needs me too) my baby brother Q (couldnt be at the funeral but he was there through me) and my stepsisters/mother (Jolanda, Jennifer & Carol) and any other family member that couldnt attend because thats what my Grandma would have wanted...I love you Grandma (R.I.P.) and I will miss you dearly but there are some great people (angels) left here to look after your baby boy & below I will thank each one of them:

(Twitter)

@Mo_Rease...@treasurecarelli...@mylifeasbreezy...@TearlessPoet...@amy_blueyez...@MrLoveerMan925...@JAM05028

@Shaa_Nichole...@millertime773...@EvilOne215...@Larion...@BrandonDaHater...@mehart9791...@iiKnOwRiiGhT

@RaTHeR_Un1QuE...@Chiefen_B...@JustinTwiterLan...@Aftashok...@RandomRon...@DontBeASkeptik...@NitaMichelle

@ImToBlame...@mickey_bish...@GameShifta...@hdavisiii...@STLScorpio31...@QDeezy1906...@thejournalist44...@MaryTessa

@Gee537...@mrtj822...@SweetSecrecy...@LevnUMesmerized...@TheRealWavy...@CandieDimples...@IAMBNC...@BLU_315

@BASIKARMA...@Kacizzle88...@Miss_D5...@jwolf23...@JamesFVegas...@peekachoo420...@LATISHA0510...@GoodGem1000

@neisha429...@tinie812...@IsleDeFleur...@Hollywood_Trey...@MISS_OTTAWA2008...@Ooniepix...@Carmel_Thunder

@evesdatgirl...@nShAiOwNWorLd...@JaynLBC...@ElPreziDiLL...@AliiB00...@iameddrick...@PearlMM...@LatinChicaHeart

@MsNique619...@iAmDaYzIE...@BenJoBubble...@Amaury_Polanco...@IamEjPrince...@ShawnieceQB...@sexychi

@MzLongLeggz...@1Ltink_tink...@Shawndelly...@PerfectEnigma...@Marily2500...@qianabb...@HotSexyBiscuits

@QueenPenelope...@mario4rory...@SNEAKNLA...@MzDimples03...@daheavyhitter...@ShandaTV...@Twan_Who

@tiffeetiff...@Princesscutz...@jackiechanel09...@EbonyVixen

(Facebook)

Kim, Kas, Danni, Sophia, Big Mike (Hass), Traci, Jeff, John, Tina, Phil, Ant (Infamy), Garron (HB), Joann, Adrianna, Jason, Keren

SPECIAL THANKS to my wife Key, baby you have been instrumental in everything you have done and been to me this past week and I feel so blessed to have such amazing support from my partner, i love you babe!!!

"tell my friends, each one, they taught me how to be one, i owe to them part of everything that i've become" - Joe Budden